Drifting
Day 10,484. Yesterday, I realised that I cannot be anyone else even if I know that being like them (rather, behaving like them) would benefit me, seeing as how these people live. I seem to think less of you everyday.
A line I saw today: 사랑은 소유 하는것이 아니라 지켜 주는 것입니다.
I couldn’t disagree more. Waiting on love doesn’t guarantee you love, more like realisation that you’re dumb and if you’re a girl, will lead you to the dumpster of spinsters. Somehow I feel like I’m talking about myself here 囧 although really I can’t say much on the subject, since me EXP on this one is insignificant. Rather than having love, I think we all just want our love validated somehow. That we’re not just fools being duped emotionally and time-wise, effort-wise etc.
People who say the line above probably think they’re some fictional drama character. You don’t have to worry in such dramas because the ending is usually a happy, politically correct win-all situation. Especially East Asian dramas.
Anyway. Starting from today I only need to slowly hand over my tasks for the social media accounts and I’d have more free time! Sigh, money makes you sell your time, really bad. Maintaining social media accounts totally drains you. I didn’t have the time to finish the manga translation and that translation for Minoz (which I haven’t opened). My left eye kept twitching, probably because I’d been staring for too long at the computer screen. I seem to always veer towards computers. First Business IT, then Fujitsu, then digital marketing…ƪ(‾ε‾“)ʃ I really want to stay away from all these radiation for as much as I can help it.
Work: Just need to fix one of the schedules, then do a FAQ and reminder email, send materials to both the new community managers. I think the girl is more capable than the guy since she’s more “alay” and she’s much more imaginative as far as I can see. Then again the guy knows this model so well maybe it balances out.
♥: after all my ramblings, I don’t know what to think. I even lost that sense of fear or dread. Perhaps it’ll come back or that I’m just like ‘whatever’ now. At least I save money. Being free means part of the best things in life, huh.
絆:両親以外の家族にとって、私の存在は、利用すべきだけと考えさせられちゃう。だから、パパとママの存在のを感謝します。でもそれはえいえんなことないに決まってる。それから、私はどうになるとかしら。考えだけで恐ろしすぎる。幸いに、今週末バスチアニ城ができるチャンスが。
